It's been a while. I was cheerfully coasting through september and before i knew it, i was being dragged through December, coming out the other end resembling some sort of tortured wildebeest! Anyone with me? I had dreams of turkey basting, cookie baking and card making, all done in the peaceful haze of domestic blissfulness when in reality i was snowed in, dosed up and late....... for everything!! Christmas as an adult isn't how i imagined it would be. It's busy and expensive and stressful!
I have to admit, now I'm out the other side, i was a little disappointed by my experience this year. I just didn't get that warm fuzzy feeling i kept expecting to get. Putting up the tree seemed a little less fun than i had remembered it. It snowed and we got a white christmas, but instead of being overjoyed, i was... cold! (Especially when we ran out of oil!) It just felt as though I was in a slump and i couldn't get out of it. I couldn't see beyond it. I felt like my expectation had diminished. I had been robbed.
Sometimes everyday life feels like that. We just get caught up in stuff. We started out with clear goals, exciting dreams and high expectations and half way through, we come up for air and realize that we don't recognize the landscape. How could our journey towards our dreams have taken such a detour into the desert? We get disappointed and dry. We feel like it would be easier to claw our way back than to fight our way forward in the unknown terrain.
But i don't want to take the line of a coward in these times! I don't want to turn and run with my manolos in hand! Nor do i want to just about make it by the skin of my teeth, exhausted by the experience and terrified to do it again. In these times i want to put on my battle boots, face the spiritual elements and take courage in the knowledge that i was made for desert combat.
Hey, if Moses can do it in sandals.......
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